hey hey how is everybody...fridays game was the best even though we lost....i got to see jackie....i havnt seen her in ages.... she just made my day even better.....she is such a sweetie....and i totally look up to her....maybe im just saying these things cuz i noe that she might be reading it....hahaha...but im not i reli mean it...but yea i really miss her....i only started to really talk to her from the last couple weeks of last year up till now.....im going to cry.......i hope she comes this friday...so she can meet my sister....yup my sis is growing up...she will be a....freshman next year and i will be a senior....yea...she plays clarient....ahhh..cant wait.....anywho....school is a drag....i try so hard not to fall asleep in my french class but its just not working....need to come up with a new strategy....i think i spelt it right.....yea....soooooo....i dunno wat to write....wat i think is soooo weird is that i just cant face the fact that this is my junior year and i'll only have one more year to go untill college...thats a scary thought....i dunno....i dont noe how everybody felt when they were a junior but the future reli scares me....ok now i gtg get some sleep....ill try to update before the competition because i need to say something....k byeeeeee

hey...i hope everybody is doing okay....if ya didnt noe i just turned 16 on saturday october 16th...so yea...it was great...i had some of my friends come over and lots of family members....nobody ever stops by on my site....i dunno...its lonesome....last friday i got to conduct some of the stand tunes...so yea that was great....i asked mr. obado if i can do it again this friday and he said that it was okay....boy do i feel bored.....i dunno....ppl now a days just dont seem to do what they used to....my last class of the day is sooo crappy the teacher always picks on our table saying that everything is our fault...and now i noe that she is just playing us cuz next friday we might....MIGHT...have a pizza party...ughhhh...cant stand it....oh well...life goes on....well gtg do some hw....damn hw...so yea bye

hey everyone...its been a while since i have been on...so much has happened and i have been working my ass off......with band practice and school and the hw its just driving me crazy......i feel like im gaining more and more weight because the only thing i do is sit on the couch not wanting to do anything....competition last weekend.....i was soooo upset......that day was just not the best thing that has happened....i felt like i was going through an emotional break down...crying my eyes out......i cry for the stupidest reasons......and then the finals show was AWFUL....i personal thougt that i did great...i hit my spots and i was just at attention...hardcore...then the trumpets oh my gosh....they didnt even watch the drum major...that is something that everybody in band learns...watch the  director...watch the drum major....its not that hard....cause they are right in front of you.....we came in thrid but i noe that we could have done better....and then this girl which i will nickname 'c' would not shut their mouth....kept on yapping and yapping...then i blew up in her face and said shut up dont talk to me....grrrrrrrrrr....i feel soooo frustrated......why me...why do i have to be cursed with this life......the only good thing abot it is that im turning 16 this saturday and so far i dont noe if anyone is going to show up....i dont noe how i am going to get through this week without going through another breakdown.....i just want this week to be over and for saturday to last forever.....im getting older and older each day and i am sooo scared.....next year will be my senior year and i am absolutly frightened with what i am going to do in the future.....everything scares me now....i am totally lost....i didnt even bring my science folder home to do an essay which is due 2morow.... i am a total wreck....i cant stand it anymore...so stressed out...so many things to say but i dont noe how to say it....i dont even noe how to close up this entry....i guess ill just leave it like this...k bye